Wednesday... Mid-week hump day they call it. It's when you feel the stress of work but the weekend still isn't anywhere in sight. I've never been bothered too much by Wednesdays. Maybe I'm feeling this slump because of a few unpleasant vibes around me. For one, I just finished reading the fourth book of the Twilight series - Breaking Dawn. I mean, yeah, it's been an absolute joy to read the whole series in 8 days. But what am I going to do now? I miss Bella and Edward. Oh well, I can go back to reading my favorite parts of the book anyway. But Bella and Edward should be the least of my concerns. Dad's still in the hospital. The thought is just freaking me out. He had his surgery last week, but he's still in because doctors have to observe him - his heart, his sugar level, his lungs. And being here, not being able to anything, feeling helpless -- it's not good for my well-being. Hearing the anxiety and worry in voice of my mum when she gives me updates does not help either. It can be really draining - emotionally and financially. You'd expect MJ to be more understanding and considerate of my fragile state, but noooo.... He has to give me a hard time too. I wasn't talking to him this morning but he rang me during my lunch break because he needed something so I had to talk to him.
On second thought, it would be good to have Twilight to read again. I need the distraction from all these. There's nothing much I can do except pray. Worrying can be such a waste of time and energy. After giving it some thought, I think worrying is the mind's way of coping, or prepping up for the worst. So if worst comes to worse, the body doesn't go into shock. I still wish I would stop worrying now. I wouldn't want to go into shock either.
I wish I could handle this stress better. I better figure out something soon. Real soon.
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